W

hen I was a kid, I could not get enough of Alice in Wonderland.  The cartoon and the book were hugely inspirational to me.  How Alice made Wonderland's nonsense work pretty much became my guidebook to life—instead of trying to change the weirdness of the other characters, she embraced and made the best of it. It is no surprise then that I have recently become obsessed with the musician Poe's website, specifically the section where you can listen to people talk about the dreams they had the night before.  (The URL is www.repoezessed.com if you are curious.)  There are so many people in the world that have vivid, communicative dreams that the site sometimes seems like its own little Wonderland.  In the dream world, people seem to leave their sense of logic and expectation behind and let the images be themselves.  I think it is a safe bet that very few of these people treat themselves with such forbearance and appreciation in their waking lives.  If they did, then they would not have so much unconscious jealousy towards others.

  We have all been the recipient of jealousy.  We have all felt the biting little comments of people who cannot seem to express their nasty feelings towards us directly.  We have all had others continually stand in our way, but do so under the guise of friendship and good will.  (A lot of people have told me that this runs rampant in organized religious groups and Pagan Meet Up groups, but I will not go there.)  As a psychic and someone who works in the mental health field, I have a lot of clients ask me from whence others' jealousy springs.  Simple.  Constipation of the ego—those moments when one denies one's own behavior because it does not fit in with the Idealized Image of Self—often manifests as jealous behaviors towards others.  Other people are not the only problem here.  You are probably coming off as jealous or negative to someone in your life as you read this.  If you have an image of yourself, the chances are good that you are constipating it.  If you are constipating your ego, then you are inadvertently treating others like fecal matter.  You do not believe that you are capable of this?  What is it that you think you are doing when you avoid someone, just so they do not remind you of something bad you did?  Why do you think you mentally revise history so that you look like the bigger person?  Once you wrap your head around the concept that your unconscious behaviors are affecting others, then you are free to unstick the parts of your life they are blocking.

We have never formally been introduced, but I am certain that the Hindu goddess Kali agrees with me.  She is the Goddess of Ego Death and is known for slaying the parts of the ego one does not need, such as jealousy, hatred, fear, and outworn images of oneself.  Thanks to the human fear of their inner truth, however, Kali has gotten a really bad rap.  Okay, so maybe eating demons is not a family-friendly activity and ripping a soul to shreds because of its degree of corruption is a little bit graphic.   Once one understands that there was never any need for the negativity that caused the corruption, however, one can appreciate Kali as the Proctologist of the Soul, rather than a merciless slayer.  

If you are truly ready to be rid of not only others' negativity, but your own, then I suggest you call upon this no-nonsense goddess.  Be warned, however, that any mantra to Kali should be followed up with self-care and self-healing.  Prepare to be shaken up after doing this mantra for 4-6 weeks and prepare for others to look at you differently.

WHAT YOU WILL NEED:

1. Dark blue, black, and white novena candles, preferably the Holy Death candles

2. A round mirror, such as the ones sold at the dollar store.

3. Cinnamon, frankincense, patchouli, or Nag Champa incense.

4. A 27, 54, or 108 bead piece of mala jewelry

5. A journal and a writing implement

6. A piece of sodalite or a sodalite skull

7. A journal and a writing implement

`And an hour of uninterrupted time

WHAT YOU WILL DO:

In your journal, write down every last thought you have regarding jealousy, negativity, and your view of yourself.

Set the three candles in front of the mirror.

Light the incense and set your intention to remove the jealousy, negativity, and outworn attitudes in your life that are holding you back.

Take a deep breath in and imagine white light streaming in through your grounding cable and crown chakra.  Repeat the following 3-9 times: “I am lighting this candle to ask Kali to remove the parts of self that are holding me back and replace them with love, truth, white light, healing and prosperity.”

Once you are centered, repeat the following mantra 108 times: “Ohm krim kalyai namah, Ohm kapalinaye namah, Ohm hrim shrim krim Parameshvari kalike svaha.”

Spend 15 minutes in quiet contemplation, writing down any thoughts and feelings that come into your mind.  Be careful not to judge or analyze them, just record them as they come. Thank Kali for her insight and close this ritual for the day. Practice an act of self-care (e.g. yoga, cleaning part of the house, spending time with pets, taking a walk, taking a bath, etc.) that makes you feel good. Understand that shakiness and insecurity are inevitable parts of this process.  When you start to feel shaky and insecure, pick a mantra or affirmation that helps you feel centered.  Some examples are: “I love myself and others;” “I invoke the grace of God, which fills me with Light.  Light dissolves all darkness;” or “I accept myself unconditionally.”

Spicevicious is a drug counselor by day, psychic reader by night.  She specializes in de-gunking the  aura and debunking illusions of the psyche.  She also makes Basil Water soaps which help dislodge gunk from the aura so that you are more free to manifest your best intentions.